Monday, August 10, 2009

Camus in the Comptroller

"This world reduces me to nothing. It carries me to the very end. Without anger, it denies that I exist. And, agreeing to my defeat, I move toward a wisdom where everything has already been conquered - except that tears come into my eyes, and this great sob of poetry makes me forget the truth of the world."

"And I want to be this perfect actor. I don't care about my personality and I'm not interested in cultivating it. I don't want to treat my life as an experiment, but to be what my life makes me. It is I who am the experimnet, and it is life that forms and controls me. If I had enough strength and patience, I know how completely impersonal I would become, how far my strength would carry me on the path to active nothingness. What has always held me back is my personal vanity. Today, I can understand that to love, act and suffer is indeed to be alive, but only in so far as we become transparent and accept our fate as a single reflection of a rainbow of different joys and passions. "

"The perfect actor in life is the man who is "acted upon" - and who knows it - passive passion."






2 comments:

kena said...

ah ha! you do not exist in the realm of bikes alone. weird weird links/connections led me here but I always like it when cool people have blogs, then I can feel like I can keep up with them. I'm headed back to A-town in a couple of weeks, we should have a cheap drink at a classy place.

John Trujillo said...

Kena, I'm not as crafty a detective as u. Email me so we can def connect next time u come Austin way.
Dwntwnbikr@gmail.com